Endurance and Hope

Endurance will keep my breathing strong and my rhythm steady.
I just need to get to that stop sign at the church parking lot, and then I can stop and take a breath.
It empowers my will and takes charge over all internal and external feelings making me numb from the pain of my ankles and the cramp in my ribs, so now my attention is only on how far I have to go.
It is the point where I mentally go to a strong place in my mind that is my focus, my center.
It takes me beyond my breaking point to concerns, even if it is just to the stop sign at the church.

Endurance is also how much you can take.
I can endure a lot without giving up hope.
However the down side of that is when you want something you know you are not ready for and even though I know it is not the right time, there is that ever nagging hope that brings me to how much I can ENDURE.
I want to, just this time, stop the endurance and hope.
I want to have had enough but my endurance and hope are to strong, it is back firing on me.